Why is life so ruff?

You have a mother that doesn't care about you.Not really doesn't care but she never knows how you feel inside because your too scared to tell her how you really feel?You got a dad whose not with you and a little brother who always buggs you?

In school,the most wonderful thing there is your trusting,loyal,honest and supportive friends.You always get D's and C's and sometime A's and B's on your grades especially at science?

Then you got this huge crush on this guy who seems to be soo shy to asked you out so you decided that your the one whose s'pose to do the first move.When you asked him out,he says I dunno...then when you don't like him no more,he'll say,do you still like me?I was gonna ask you out?

Got a life like mine?Ever wondered why life is ruff?PleasE...thAt'S whY itS caLled lIfE...it'S ruFF!

I am so sorry i hadn't visit or oprn my xanga account.It's not that i don't want to open it no more,or that I don't have time.It's just that I don't kindof wanna open my computer.

School,as usual,fun.Enis and I broke upi this morning.I broke up with him.Not him.Me.It's just that I'm afraid that I'll just hurt his feelings when he found out that I like another dude now.He already knows that I like James 'cause I think I told you that when I gave James a note saying,"for the last time,I'll ask you,Will you go out with me?",everybody founds out.Especially team 6-1 girls.And sure,EVRYBODY!Enis,Jon,Allen,Alyssa,Kristina,Jennyfer,Danny,Marvin,Thompson,Andy,Frank,Everybody!

Then this morning I talked to Enis,Before we wgo nside the building because every morning,we wait outside 'til the bell ring.

I talked to him and sure,my friends were watching me,being suspicious,and wondering,what is she tellin Enis?James was watching me talk to Enis to as if he was watching me and Enis Kiss.I told him,"look,Enis,Um...I nedd to break up with you." Then he was like"but why?"I just said that I'm just hurting your feelings when you hear more rumors about me and James and I don't like that.I really hurted your feelings once when you found out that I still like James a little bit,and I don't and I mean never want that to happen.

Actuaaly,he was begging me to be just with him.That I don't have to break up with him.But,well,I did.I just kissed him goodbye on his LIPS 4 d FIRST TIME nd damn it was so cool!

But what I didn't was James saw and heard the whole thing!So now he knows that I like him still.But he saw me and Enis kiss.Then I found out that he was gonna answer me yes when I asked him if he'll go out with me.He just kept saying I don't Know.

He was gonna say yes and I found out that because of Jeannette.Jeannette talked to him and said"I know that you were gonna say yes to Herlyn when she asked you out."The he was like"How did you know?"then Jeannette was like,"Uh..I gotta go now"It was so funny!

Then at language arts and literature,Andy borrowed a mechanical pencil of mine and then he lost it at spanish class and when we were going to bus,after 8th period,when we were at our lockers,I asked him Andy,where's my pencil.The he was like I left it in Spanish Class.I was like "you what?You always loose my pencil?Where is my pencil?"Then I got mad at him and he asked me If I'm mad at him and I was like DUH?sure I'm mad at you.He was like well I'm makin you smiile.I went like,You ain't no making laugh or smile anything!then he smiled at me so wide and I started to laugh.I was like,men Andy,You make me laugh so hard!

Maybe I should go for it.The question that I'd been asking since the first day of school.If Andy will go out with me.

At leat I kissed him.I kissed James but on his cheeks only.He's not my boyfriend.Enis is.Enis is from a diffirent team too.Team 6-3.He's a friend of Jon and Ja es is kind of,well,let's just say he's kind of jealous and a bit mad.Well he didn't answer me,why would he be mad?My friends kept on saying that I still like James and everyday,he kept on looking at me.Like yesterday,Friday,after lunch,we were outside,I was hanging ou with my friends and Enis,He was looking at me though I was something irresistable or someting.My friends are right,he do likes me.He's just too shy to say yes.

At least I kissed him.They were pushing me to him outside after school and they were squezing us and they said that they won't let go of us until I kissed James.And BAM!I did!

I'm so LUCKY!

School was fun today.

He still haden't answer me.

My friend,Jeannette,accidentally slap Andy Smajic when we were at lunch.

He had an icepack when he went back to class.

Poor Smajic.

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My guy has an earing!Well actually he has an aering at his left ear.But he has a new earing.And guess where's his earing?on his left eyebrow!I actually don't know if that's was an earing.I don't know if it was just dirt or and earing.His friends told me that that wasn't an earing but if he was gonna pirce his eyebrows,that's because he'll try to impress me.

yesterday,a rumor about me and my friend,Ken,was spread all over the school especially on team 6-1.I gave James a letter that says 'I'll ask you one last time,will you go out with me and please give me an positive answer!So like now,I'm the most popular girl in the whole school.Know why?Because of the letter I gave to him.

Her's the process:

5th Period;Science class

I told my friends,Jessica,Ken,Medhat,Jeannette,Eurice,Angelo,Crystal, and Alenka that I'm gonna give him the note.

Lunch

I was looking at him and he was looking at me,but never directly.But we do catch one another's eyes looking at each other.

Recess

I gave him the note and he told his friends,Kevin,Andy, and Jon

James' 6th period;Spanish class

James told Marietta,Jolie,Zuli,Sandra,Kendra,Arvie,Josh and many people that's from team 6-1.

My 7th period;C.A.S. class

I was sitting on a cahir nicely and someone came up to me and ask,"do you like James?"And I was like,Yeah.

James' 8th periodP.E class at GYM

We were all there because of the meeting of this Thumbs awards whatever.